#130 I never told anyone why I cried that day - now i'm telling you (whoever you are)

i can't believe im going to say this but ..
i don't mind living in Shanghai ,
CHINA !

i went to Shanghai for 4 days . And it was an amazing experience . We have to really thank the auntie (mum's old friend) that brought us around , because without her, i bet we wouldn't be able to survive in shanghai and we probably wouldnt be able to do as much shopping . I got a couple of new things . You know, those small things and maybe some big things lol . But i have to say, i am very very pleased with Shanghai . And i admire the auntie's life . She doesn't have to work ( eventhough she CAN work - she used to work in a bank or something ) , they have drivers , maids , and it's just very laid-back for her , you know .

But there are definitely bad things about shanghai :

1. STOP SPITTING !
2. STOP SMOKING !
3. STOP HONKING/BEEPING !
4. STOP PUSHING !
5. HAVE SOME MANNERS !
6. Keep your toilets clean, thank you !
7. Keep your country clean, thank you !
8. Don't try to cheat me, thank you !
9. Always give me the lowest price ! :D

Well, there wasn't much to sightsee because there's construction everywhere . They're preparing for the World Expo 2010 . But something that i like about shanghai are the lights at night . They're so prettyyy :) but they also cause pollution. Yes, i know -.-

anyway, i'm in singapore now . it's hot hot hot . but the air conditioning is on :) so it's actually pretty cold cold cold . tmr night i'm going to kl . So far, this holidays - i've been on 3 flights and 5 more flights to go ! Not that i want it to come quick . I'm enjoying my holidays :) Tell me about yours . I kind of miss australia already .

ta !
p.s. A few years ago, i remember there was this one time in school - when i felt so so so down . I felt like nothing was going the right way . i felt like i didn't belong at all . Around me, people were happy with the people around them. But i felt isolated. And i started crying . i went down to the toilets and cried and cried .The bell rang and i tried to wipe away my tears. Before class, people noticed, and i cried even more. During class, i just put my head down and sobbed softly. It was probably my worst day ever in school. No one knew why i cried. I'm lucky i have a family. Cause they make things better (sometimes).

#129 nothing interesting

Time Traveller's Wife movie ticket
Medium Cheeseburger McValue Meal
2 pairs of shoes (Black & Red)
2 pairs of Sunnies (Black & Red )
One Lomolito Disposable Camera (Blue)
Two AgentNinetyNine tanks
One Cream Cardigan
Cotton On Charity Bag
Pantene Shampoo
Pantene Conditioner
Dove Deodorant

As you can see , i am currently going through Step 4 and 5 of my "break-up" . I spent a lot of money today . And i feel really guilty cause my mum never spends any money . I mean, she buys what she needs . And I , on the other hand, splurge . But if you look at my expenses individually, you can actually see that they were all reasonable prices . Well, you can't see that .. but that's what i'm telling you now . so believe it ! :D

Richard said half of the things i bought i don't even need. Well , i beg to differ ! I need shampoo , conditioner and deodorant . Especially when the weather is boiling hot ! Cotton On Charity Bag - it was for CHARITY ! I had to buy the two pairs of cheap sunnies - they complemented my shoes ! Cheesburger Meal is definitely needed - i need food right ? Lomolito Disposable Camera - OMGSH REALLY NEED THIS FOR CREATIVE/ARTISTIC PURPOSES (and also just for fun) and the rest - I NEED TO CLOTHE MYSELF ?

okay im tired . That's it for tonight .

OH OH OH ! hahha if you read it backwards it's HO HO HO . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA .. it's funny . anyway , Gloria and I were walking in Towers today . And we walked past the Men's Haidressing place . It's some American Hairdressing thing . And I really want to get my haircut there . I mean , it looks really cool ! Why can't they have one for women ? I don't know ! It just looks really cool D: .. anyway i was wondering if all the men hairdressers ( or hair stylists) are gay . Cause they cater for men . so maybe they're gay . do you see my logic here ?

ta !
p.s. Oh yeah, i got my braces off. Nothing special. My teeth are really big. And the orthodontist is really gay - he cut my lip ! The helper girl tried to choke me with the little vacuum tube that sucks water out from your mouth . They also gave me a nice little face wash while taking my braces off . They stuck the mould mix in my mouth and it was disgusting. The mould went everywhere on my face. Then the orthodontist complimented me on how fast i rinse my mouth. Yes, a very pleasant experience indeed.

#128 whats with all the Rachel : and the : ???

i take back everything i said about the weather being cold . let it be cold again ! :(

highlight of my day :

Mae Ann : your blog is getting angrier and angrier !
Rachel : What ? Yeah right ...
Mae Ann > Gloria : Have you read her blog ?
Gloria : Yeaah .
Mae Ann : Don't you think it's getting angrier ?
Gloria : .. it's the weather

Rachel : HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA !
Gloria : Don't you love me ?
Rachel : HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAH ... yes

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crossroads was quite boring . okay , very boring . yes, it was sad that people got into car accidents and have brain injury . It is sad that people drink and drive . but not trying to be slack or anything , it just gets boring sometimes ? because we've heard it sooo many times D: anyway , we got wristbands . apparently thats a very "YES !" thing .

CrossRoads Program person : You guys will be divided into groups based on the colour of your wristbands. And you get to keep these wristbands .
Crowd : omg yessss ! YESSS !! YESSSSS ! .... oooooohhhh YES !
Rachel : .. hmmmmm why do i have a pimple on my elbow ...... ???

CrossRoads Program person : 4 and 5 gets ORANGE wristbands .
Some chick : EWWW ! ORANGE !? that's such an ugly colour !

Sometimes i wonder why we're year 10 . We might as well be Year 7 chicks trying to act cool . I mean, do we really care about the colour of our wristbands ? Do we really care that we get wristbands ?

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Telling a tutor that you won't be needing his/her services anymore is like breaking up with a boyfriend/girlfriend .

1 . We are too scared to break up in person so we call them or MSN/IM them . In this particular case , the tutor does not have MSN/IM . Damn , it was the best option ! Callimg them is the hardest bit (not as hard as a face-to-face break up though) .. you sit for awhile staring down at the phone . Suddenly, you have the BEST IDEA EVER ! TXT HIM/HER !!! it's so easy ! Why didn't I think of it earlier ? But then .. your conscience (in this particular case , my conscience is my brother) tells you "JUST CALL ! AND IT'S ALREADY 5:30 ! " - So you dial the number , And you hit the call button . And you hang up before it starts ringing . This goes on for about 5 minutes . So you finally call .

Rachel : Hi , I won't be needing you anymore .
Tutor / boyfriend / girlfriend : Okay then , I'll see you whenever ! Have a great holiday !

2. This is the part that's so annoying ! DO THEY ALWAYS HAVE TO BE NICE !? I mean, some aren't . And some are definitely more complicated then the scenario above . BUT , In this scenario, THEY'RE SO NICE !??? WHY !? So you stay up all night , thinking if you did the right thing or not . Was I too harsh ? Is he/she secretly trying to hide his/her anger/sorrow from me? Or maybe he/she's happy about this !? WHY WHY WHY !?

3. So you can't sleep .. And here comes the binging session . Anything you see , EAT IT . JUST EAT IT . Shapes, Smith's, Muesli Bars , Pods, Popcorn , Chocolate , Sweets , Lollies , Rice and CHICKEN . A LOT OF CHICKEN . JUST CHICKEN . .. don't ask why chicken o.o

4. Movie Sesh . THE NOTEBOOK , the PAPERBOOK , the PENBOOK , the WALK TO REMEMBER , the RELATIONSHIP to FORGET , HEELS OVER HEAD .

5. Retail Therapy . HEELS .

6. Oh, did i mention in between all these steps , you reminisce .
REMEMBER THAT TIME :
- when i went to tutor , and she SMILED at me . AAAAAHHHHHHH :(
- when i was late , AND SHE DIDNT CARE :(
- when she ran out ink for her markers !!?? .. like a billion times !!! SO SADDD :(
- when her light was (always) not good enough so i always had to squint my eyes . I MISS HER LIGHT !! :(
- when i didn't understand something, BUT NODDED ANYWAY !!! IM CRYING NOW !

I JUST MISS SQUINTING AND STRAINING MY EYES !! :(

7. Then you move on .

8. Stay tuned for the awkward reunion .

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I hope you enjoyed this post . Leave a comment . I'm feeling happy .. just for Mae Ann . Lots of packing to be done . And cleaning as well . My room is messy again .

ta !
p.s. I actually wouldn't mind a YELLOW wristband .

#127 i have a family

i really need a holiday

School is such a bore and there is nothing to do in school . i'd rather stay home cause i'm getting to that point of the year when the weather's way too hot and all you need to do is to stay home or maybe do some shopping . Hopefully , i'm not going to school tomorrow - apparently , it's going to 38 degrees or something like that . it's going to be hot , that's all i know . If i'm not going to school , i'm going to towers to do some christmas shopping and watch a movie (maybe) if i can get someone to join me . if i am going to school , i will be a very very angry child .

you know what , being surrounded by about 6 couples really makes me not want a boyfriend even more . i dont know , the whole couples thing at school made me see things at a very different perspective . and im soooo happy that im not in a relationship right now after being surrounded by a billion of them . i mean , it's not that i don't want a guy to meet me halfway down the aisle . it's just that .. after looking at so many of these couples , it made me realise that really having a boyfriend is just .. so tiring and annoying at times . don't get me wrong , there are perks . but i won't get into this atm . my cricket died btw . that was my surprise .

i went to madd (music art dance drama) on tuesday night ... alone . It was my first time ever going somewhere alone . It was quite nice i guess . but scary maybe . but the thing is , during the interval , a couple of "friends" came up and said "wth ? wtf are you doing here ? " - that just pissed me offf sooooooo bad . i mean come on , it's a freaking school event thing . and it's a freaking public thing . anyone can go . i mean why dont you ask someone from the band why theyre here ? i went because im part of the school? duh !? omg pissed me off . i seriously wanted to be like . "wtf am i doing here ? wtf are YOU doing here !!?? i have every right to be here just like you ! i bet you don't even appreciate these kind of things ! " they probably only came cause ____________ (i can't say why cause people from my school read this . but feel free to ask if you think i trust you . hah ) they probably went to you know, just chill and stuff . yeah okay, i seriously don't blame them . but like , why are you asking me why I'M here !?

but overall , i like madd . i like showcase and madd . that's why i go to these things . i want to look at other people's art , i want to hear the choir sing eventhough you couldnt really hear them cause the sound system sucks . But i just wanted to go to support my school . and you know , sometimes just sitting there (alone) with the concert band playing . it's quite a peaceful environment (: 'till Jin came and started annoying me . Naaah , Jin was nice enough to come sit next to me . and i'm grateful for that :D

you might be wondering why i went alone. some people were. well , the people that i wanted to go with couldnt make it . and i dont want to go with people that i dont want to go with . right ? so i went alone . and i was having a bad day already . i just needed some time away from the family and madd was a perfect way to get away and maybe think .

ta !
p.s. its not me ! its the heat , i swear !

#126 SHE DROPPED THE JAR !?

Every move I make I make in you
You make me move, Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in you
Every step I take I take in you
You are my way, Jesus
Every breath I take I breathe in you
Singin’

Waves of mercy waves of grace
Everywhere I look I see your face
Your love has captured me
O my God this love how can it be
Singin’

Na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na


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huh,, this picture was so much darker in photoshop .. -gloria-

im considering making my blog private . but the reasons to keep it public overrule . I don't like people who steal Coco Chanel away from me. But i offered (they wanted it anyway !) so i guess .. it's my fault ? but anyway .. my dad's snoring .. my mum's under the blanket when it's like.. bloody hot . So im trying not to type so much and i'm going to sleep now :)


update tmr !

ta !
p.s. I HAVE A SURPRISE FOR YOUU ! :D